jill elinore wrote:Hi Raymond, Im not sure if you are the same Raymond that used to post on Horoscopic Astrology and UA back a few years but, anyway, you have interesting ideas and write extremely well especially considering your challenges - I have a son with similar issues.
Jill
Jill,
I am the same person.
Like many neurodivergents, I use compensatory strategies. Special education therapies including auditory therapy, speech therapy, phonics training, and motor skills therapy helped make that happen. Of course, I owe that all to great special education teachers/therapists.
My very strong Saturn influence (I have numerous Saturn aspects) fit with not only my compensation strategies and habits that I have developed, but also being hard on myself, and insecurity in connection to restrictions,limitations, late bloomer/development, and trying to fit in and be normal even though that was never me any way.
No matter what perspective my chart is looked at, it's obvious that I am not meant to go with the status quo at all. My consultation with Philip Sedgwick, he and I agreed on that. That is why I have strong transneptunian dwarf planet/candidate energy besides Pluto from every perspective.
My primary mode of thinking is pictorial,visual. I have Mercury conjunct Sun/Neptune midpoint that can indicate that, and mainstream astrologers would say that it's my Neptune in 3rd. Some astrologers that use declinations would say that it's my Mercury parallel Neptune. Unlike most children, I didn't learn language from exposure. Word,verbal thinking didn't come naturally to me like it does with most children. I had to be taught to think that way. My brain had to be re-wired in order for me to no longer scramble and reverse words,language when I was listening to people speak which led to speech reversals,unintelligible,disorganized speech. That is what auditory therapy did for me. I had to get speech therapy and phonics training so I could be able to speak and read. Phonics training doesn't work if there is no phonemic awareness which I greatly lacked before I had the auditory therapy and speech therapy. My motor skills therapy helped me develop adequate use of my hands. It was actually therapy to work with my fine motor skills. Because I didn't naturally grasp the concept of language and words, I had problems with social skills. Those things had to be taught to me. Before special education therapies, I resembled somebody with autism. After special education therapies, I resemble somebody with Aspergers Syndrome. I don't have their strengths of natural organization, detail-orientation and rote memorization abilities that people on the Autistic Spectrum tend to have.
I don't have their weaknesses of problems understanding emotional/social cues (tone of voice,gestures,facial expressions). My intense and ultrasensitive reactions to environment,surroundings is not as intense and ultrasensitive as their reactions and how I was in early childhood. From what my mother told me, my father was a different story. She and I now believe that he was on the Autistic Spectrum and didn't just have Dyslexic,Dyspraxic,ADHD traits. My mother has them to an extent, but not as extreme as my father's nor mine.
I have difficulty learning in a classroom because I am mainly a visual spatial learner, and so I have problems learning in an auditory sequential learning environment. Lecture teaching doesn't work on me at all. I have to see and do to learn something.
It takes me awhile for me to learn something. When I do learn it, it becomes second nature. That is because I have poor short term memory and good long term memory. The latter helps me compensate for the former. I also have problems with remembering a sequence. Problems with processing sequential information affects not only my oral and written receptive-expressive language processing but also my motor skills. I don't forget easily only what I read and listen to. I forget easily motor movement actions which affects coordination, and so it can be hard for me to repeat the actions of what others are doing. I have frustrated others because of that issue. It can make training me a pain in the ass and get people to think that I am stupid,slow,or not trying. While I am paying attention a lot to the point and being very anxious when I am not getting it quickly as I should.
A neuro-psychologist helped me understand that my short term memory problems are due to to problems with organizing and encoding information. I also believe that it's also connected to the sequential processing problems that I have.
Another issue that factors into my learning problems is that I need to be interested in something for me to learn it. If I am not interested, I will get bored and not pay attention to the subject material. This just compounds the problems that is connected to being mainly a visual spatial learner,having problems with short memory, and problems with sequential processing.
Another is that I get information overload easily. When I read, too much word information comes to my eyes for my brain to process. When I listen, too much word information comes to my ears for my brain to process. The neuro-psychologist told me that I have problems with strings of words whether it's oral or written. This could also be in connection to sequential processing problems. Word is a sequence of letters in order. Sentence is a sequence of words in order. Paragraph is a sequence of sentences in order. It can be a sensory processing issue.
Another factor in reading problems is problems with visual tracking with issues with saccadic,pursuit movements. I can loose my place easily. I compensate by using a finger (either physical or mental or both). This also might be connected to having too much word information to eyes for my brain to process. However, it does effect my coordination when it comes to throwing and catching. I especially have difficulty with tracking rapid moving objects. I think that it could also being overly sensitive to my environment. I also compensate by making my font much bigger when I read and type. I enlarge my screen so I read better. When I type internet posts, I will type in large font in a word document and then paste on internet forums. This is something that I have to do when I make comments on facebook because I will accidentally enter stuff before I am finished. Facebook needs the comment button for clumsy fingered people like myself. I am having problems with Windows 7 because of the same issue. I am always accidentally opening up windows and deleting stuff. I am glad that there is an Undo function, but I tend to lose information when I am typing on facebook.
I feel that my Dyspraxic obsessiveness and ADHD hyperfocus helped me to learn what I am interested in even though I would have the Dyslexic problems of remembering what I read so I would read it repeatedly until it was in my long term memory. The trick for me is to deeply immerse myself in the material,and that's where Dyspraxia and ADHD helps me. I also think mainly in pictures,always visualizing things in my mind's eye,and that is typical of people with Dyslexia. Turning what I read into images in my mind's eye helps me to read and listen. I can get totally immersed in fiction books, especially mythology. I was taught to associate words with pictures in special education class. Special education/therapy gave me the tools to use my strengths to compensate for my weaknesses
I explained my strengths and weaknesses in my Developmental Neurodiversity Association video too.
I also have problems with speech.....this what got me misdiagnosed by psychiatrists as having bipolar disorder with schizoaffective disorder without psychological testing being done. This was before I understood neurodivergent conditions.
I actually have the speech issues that Dr. Harold N. Levinson's talks about in his book. It is what led to a misdiagnosis of bipolar with schizoaffective disorder in adulthood by psychiatrists.
It seems to be reflected by my Mercury conjunct Sun/Neptune midpoint. Some astrologers would say Neptune in 3rd house. Some astrologers would say Mercury parallel Neptune.
page 47 from A SOLUTION TO THE RIDDLE OF DYSLEXIA(The DISCOVERY OF
CEREBELLAR-VESTIBULAR SYNDROMES by Harold N. Levinson, MD
"Occasionally, dyslexics manifested a "loose" and telescopic quality to their associative speech or thinking styles, and as a result tended to be rapid,wordy, and rambling in their spontaneous descriptions. This interesting speech pattern appeared independent of anxiety factors, and tended to resemble a schizophrenic's "loose associations" and tangential thinking. However, these dyslexic children were not psychotic, and lacked autistic preoccupation and projective thinking mechanisms. They merely seemed to forget momentarily the direction of their thought sequences and/or the thoughts and words themselves.
Occasionally, the temporal spacing between words and sentences was shorter than normal and even dysmetric.
Later studies noted nonpsychotic "absentminded" adult dyslexics to manifest similar loose,wordy, and rambling speech patterns ----clearly demonstrating the need to qualitatively and diagnostically distinguish dyslexic speech patterns from schizophrenic patterns (Kasaninin, 1964). Upon analysis, this loose, absent-minded dyslexic thinking style prone to slips was found to be due to the very same underlying memory, directional, and temporal spatial dyscoordination mechanisms characterizing dyslexic reading, writing, and spelling.
Not infrequently these so-called absent-minded individuals intend to do say or do one thing and wind up saying or doing another, even the opposite of what was originally intended. Forgetting is commonplace. As a result, the dyslexic's speech and action patterns may often exhibit a disoriented and disjointed, even comical, quality, which many clinicians fallaciously consider due to primary psychogenic determinants. However, upon analysis, the dyscoordination or slip between intention and speech or motor response was most often found lacking a primary emotional causation, and appeared qualitatively consistent with the dyslexic symptomatology. In retrospect, these slips invariably provoked secondary emotional attempts at compensation; and the unsuspecting psychiatrist and psychologist will unwittingly mistake secondary defensive reaction with primary causation. For example, some dyslexics become embarassed, blush, and retreat socially as a result of their slips, while others attempt to joke and rationalize them away.
http://people.tribe.net/4b0cf8c4-1fc3-4 ... 0a34ae8e54
The following explains my communication compensation.
I believe that it's reflected by my Mars oppose Mercury/Saturn midpoint which is actually 11th Harmonic Triangle of Mars,Mercury,Saturn. Some astrologers would say that it's Saturn in Gemini. Some astrologers that use declinations would say that it's Mercury contraparallel Saturn.
page 48 to 49 from A SOLUTION TO THE RIDDLE OF DYSLEXIA(The DISCOVERY OF
CEREBELLAR-VESTIBULAR SYNDROMES by Harold N. Levinson, MD
"Paradoxically, some dyslexics were found to demonstrate highly organized, crystal-clear thinking and expressive styles. Upon analysis, many of these individuals were found to have had subtle and compensated speech impediments during their early childhood. In retrospect, their highly condensed speech patterns appeared to be defensive or adaptive attempts at minimizing speech output and thinking errors. Although these dyslexics were often incapable of spontaneous free-associative and reflective speech, they were more than capable of performing these same very same functions in silence.
For example, when asked to freely think aloud about a question, they could not or would not. But they could, and would,invariably produce the answer after a silent pause----clearly demonstrating their highly developed, silent associative and reflective thinking capacities.
Following recognition and resolution of their guarded or defensive speech mechanisms, many learned to think aloud and to express themselves without embarassed or fear of criticism. Later adult stories not only confirmed these observations but revealed the existence of dyslexics who were capable of free association and reflection only when writing. Their fluent and lucid writing styles appeared to be motivated similarly by dyslexic verbalization difficulties which were compensated for by gifted and/or unhampered writing functions. "
http://people.tribe.net/4b0cf8c4-1fc3-4 ... 0a34ae8e54
I can related to everything above. My speech and writing styles are based on compensation and special education therapy remediation.
If I focus on my Mercury aspects to check out my thought processes in regards to that.....well...I have
Mercury undecile Uranus - '19
Mercury quinqueundecile Sedna - '07
Uranus quinqueundecile Sedna - '26
( with corresponding midpoint picture of:
Sedna oppose Mercury/Uranus - '17)
I believe that this configuration indicates my nonlinear thought processes along with being innovative,creative(can seem too out there in my thinking like crazy,nutty)highly imaginative,strong 3D visualization abilities,non-stop visualization because of picture thinking being my primary mode of thought)
Mercury quinqueundecile Saturn - '25
Mercury quinqueundecile Sedna - '07
Saturn undecile Sedna - '17
(with corresponding midpoint picture of:
Mercury oppose Saturn/Sedna midpoint - '16)
I also believe that this configuration also indicates my strong 3D visualization abilities...especially in regards to looking at geometry, but also can be problems with communications as well thoughts of inadequacy,depression)
not only do I have those 11th harmonic triangles,
I also have an opposition of midpoints
Mercury/Sedna in 10'13 Aquarius
oppose Saturn/Uranus in 10'12 Leo
conjunct/oppose Lunar Nodes are in 10'29 Aquarus/Leo
as you see, they are opposite each other with only 1 minute of arc. Magi Society refers to that as a magi quad. The Hamburg School calls it a planetary picture. David Cochrane(founder of Cosmic Patterns,Kepler) calls it an isosceles trapezoid. The midpoints are closely aligned with the lunar nodes.
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid= ... =3&theater
an 11th harmonic (rebellion,instability,social consciousness) configuration of Mercury-Mars-Saturn-Uranus-Sedna
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid= ... =3&theater
Mercury biquintile Eris - '06
Mercury square Makemake - 2'01.
I am interested in astrological indicators for neurodivergence and helping my fellow neurodivergents with Astrology. I had a Heliocentric Astrological consultation with Philip Sedgwick back around the end of November. I told him that I want to specialize in helping special education needs/neurodivergent children.
Without special education therapies, I'd still be autistic-like which got me misplaced with the intellectually handicapped.
Now I am Aspergers-like in regards to seeming odd, weird.
I will post in the thread about my astrological theories about neurodivergence.